SHAME ON ME

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done,
I'm sorry for the times that I came home way too late
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
would just make it home.
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I wasn't always there when you lost your son
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when no one's there
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my mother
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad
When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your daughter was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not been so bad
I wish I would have listen to you and dad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that god came and took them away
I'm sorry that it took me so long to see
I'm sorry that it took me so long to speak
I'm sorry for the hand that you were dealt
But most of all I'm so very sorry for all the pain you felt.

This poem just like my other poem is for my mom who has been and is still today an inspiration in my life someday I hope to be half the mom she has been to me, my brother passed away three years ago and my dad just passed away in January, my brother was only 28 and my mom and dad were married for 42 years, my poor mom is going through so many different emotions, and Iv never felt so helpless, but writing does help, thank for all who read, feel free to comment, your opion is appreceiated