Inspiration

You are fat
you need to lose weight
you can NOT get NO man with your size..

all these voices constantly replayed in my head..
all i wanted it to do was to just...
stop...

I remember seeing a mother grab her child so quickly as she seen me approaching the isle..
and as she was glaring at me she said stay out of the way of fat people..
they'll squash you if you're in their way of food..

those words haunted me..
i slowly started cutting back on eating..
it started with me missing meals..
or when i had to eat..
i'd eat slowly and drink a lot of water in between bites..
i would be so happy to be dismissed from the table because i knew i could go and purge..

i started dropping weight instantly..
from 190lbs to 173...
and it steadily kept decreasing.
it was a relief because then maybe..
just maybe.. people would stop making fun of me..
but i still wasnt happy..

i then started getting..
are you eating anything??
you look so unhealthy..
you're too thin..
or whispers as i walked passed people -is she anorexic-
but never anything asking if i was okay...

i seemed to not satisfy anyone..
so why am i here???

--PAUSE--

anyone who ever feels unworthy, unloved, ugly, etc..
you.. are BEAUTIFUL!!
YOU are one of a kind..
YOU are unique.
YOU are special!!!
YOU are WORTH SOMETHING WONDERFUL!!
i promise <3

and if anyone tells you different..
know that it is not true..
they are lying because they feel envious of you..

be strong..
continue on..
YOU CAN DO IT!!

destroy that person in your head telling you exactly what those people have told you..
because what they see shall not mold you into what they see you as..

when you look in the mirror from here on out..
tell yourself..
hey you..
yeah you..
you are beautiful..
and smile...
try to encourage yourself to believe you are more than what people have told you..

erase that terrible self image and make a new one!
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!
Y-O-U
A-R-E
B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!!!

~i never had an eating disorder but i was trying to put myself in the shoes of someone who has an eating disorder and i am speaking out on what former friends have told me and some recent studies on eating disorders.. i have been called anorexic though but that is the only thing that relates to me on this topic..~