My life, My death

by Amy   Jun 29, 2004


No one really knows
why I'm depressed
but i guess its time
for me to confess

See my parents hate me
there always doing dope
calling me names
i feel cant cope

Always getting blamed
and knowing they don't care
getting slapped in the face
do you think its fair?

My so called friends
don't even see
how much their actions
really effect me

And when I'm sad
and i cant stop the tears
they stare at me
then leave me here

They see the cuts
upon my wrist
but they choose to ignore
how much i hate this

Never even asking
if I'm okay
but still I'm the one
they come to with problems everyday

When i look in the mirror
i hate what i see
my own worst enemy
staring back at me

I'm ugly and stupid
and i feel so alone
my entire life
Ive been on my own

Every time i smile
its forced and fake
because slowly my spirit
is starting to break

And my laugh so hollow
as i put up my mask
hide behind my walls
consumed by my past

I feel outta place
i don't fit in anywhere
i don't belong
and no one cares

No one sees me
not the real person inside
nobody knows me
or the feelings hide

Now its over
as i hold the blood-soaked knife
now is the time
i will take my own life

Tears stained
upon my cheeks
i can hardy breathe
i feel so weak

As the blade cuts deep
and my heart beats fast
I'm taking the easy way out
running from my past

My head hits the floor
and there i lay
the girl no one knew
drifting away

My life and death
i had to confess
no longer will i
ever be depressed

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  • 20 years ago

    by Nysa

    u sould never give up***** sry bout spellin... im really sleepy.. lol

  • 20 years ago

    by Nysa

    i know im just one of the many ppl commenting your poem and prolly wont mean nothin and wont ever read it! but i just wanned to let u kno i been touched by ur poem and feel u! i think its great when some1 can make others feel what they r feeling because thats what a truly great writer is! and i think u deserve that name! ur great and never ever ever give up no matter how hard life gets! just think about others.. there are many ppl having faith in u and until u have ppl like that u should give up! i dont know u personally but i have much faith in u cuz i see ur a beautiful person! dont care bout wot anyone thinks unless its good!
    feel free to send me an e-mail if u want to and we can talk
    lilredmobilphone@hotmail.com
    ~kit-kat~

  • 20 years ago

    by Eibutsina

    This is whoa! deep! I love it and i could totally relate - looking forward to reading somemore of your work, anyways well worth a five keep it up!

  • 20 years ago

    by kylee

    hey, wow.... i can honestly say I relate to this in some ways... i really wish I knew you!! sometimes its easier to go through stuff when you know your not alone... and i just thought i would tell you thaty your not!!! But I hope everything gets better for you as i hope it gets better for me too!!! and anyone else that has to experience this pain and hassle that most people call life... good luck and may god be with you all!!!!

  • 20 years ago

    by foreverhappy

    Hey your poem was great i really liked it. I m sorry if thats the way things are. I sort of am going through or have been through that poetry is the only way for me to express those feelings though! Keep it up!

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