Acceptance

You know.. ^ half those views are probably mine, lol. I've come and gone this piece for a while, and still couldn't comment. It's so queer. I've written about acceptance/rejection and from the first time I've read this, it reminds me of how I write, how I used to write..
I usually don't like the "pot of gold" / "fairytale promises" cliches, but you made it your own here. It's outstanding, really.
Then, you add certain realities, truths and a view of this world..

"I've been dieting,
I've been getting flexible.
but, there's only a
certain limit to which I can
stretch without hurting myself"

This.. though I can't relate with it literally, I'm sure we've all went through that doing something for someone phase or something. You just shove it there and it is heartwrenching.

The ending - its straightforwardness is perfect. It rounds up everything; the feelings, the events, the emotions..

"The last time I saw you
you were the highlight of my night.
you came late like you always do,
but you came. and that made
my soul happy, if only for a moment."

- Beautiful...there's such a bond here with this person, like just a moment of seeing their face completes your night.

"I went out, wanting to enjoy
the scent of my own youth
but instead,
I started searching for your face
in the crowd, even though I knew
I wouldn't find it."

- I've done this before, like I'm hoping to see that person though I know they have no reason to be at the same place....no reason to think of me more than a friend. Here, you make it so moving, like it is love you are trying to bring back.

"I've known for a while
now, that there is no pot
of gold at the end of the rainbow
but I am still fond of fairy tales sometimes."

- This is one of my favorite parts, and I feel like I can understand this too because I usually a believer and supporter of fairy tales and those happy, everlasting moments. Yet I also know some things don't exist, that love isn't just handed out at times. Love the simplicity here but the reality of it too.

"you promised, we would spent time
but when it comes down to it.
I've notice that you'd rather
waste it than give it to me.."

- Shouldn't "spent" be "spend"? Unless I'm not reading it right...You only need a few words to convey this and you do it so well; I get that stark impression that this person used time to their own advantage or took it for granted, not realizing its importance. It's really heartfelt here...makes me wonder why they couldn't give that to you.

"I've been dieting,
I've been getting flexible.

but, there's only a
certain limit to which I can
stretch without hurting myself

thinking of you, and
feeling sad became the same thing
with the passing of time.."

- These three stanzas were my favorite part of the whole poem!!!! It just makes my heart ache that you are feeling this, going through this, and that there is a point you can reach where it will be painful to think of this person.

The ending was so clear, your emotions right out there, yet they have a certain heaviness and burden when reading- like I can't stand to see someone else hurting this way, thrown into complications that leave so much emptiness. That last line was wow.....heart-rending. Yet it's like you have to make sure you continue on, knowing you accepted this and will not keep suffering under knowing that.

Great write, as always, you put me in a thoughtful mood! :) Take care-