Don't hate me now

Please don't hate me now.
I know who I was
doesn't deserve you,
I was a guy with
a fake beautiful smile.
I was a liar
with a sweet voice camo.
I was a player
with a cute charming face.
I was a deserter
with a cross around my neck.
I was a forgetful person
who calls her girlfriends a same name.
I was heartless being
Who broke a heart with no shame.
I was a guy you never wish for,
now you found out
now you hate me
but I won't bail out
cos I won't allow my past to make me.
you know who I was
and you know who I am now.
I know you love the present me
and you hope I am real,
you just much more hate the past me
cos is all about fake.
I love you more than letting go
but my past is dragging me out of my present.
how would I win this?
a war between the two me,
I'll go back in time
if that's what it takes for you to love me now.
I'll tell every girl I'm sorry
if it could change the way you're feeling now.
I just wish I had met you first
maybe I won't be guy I was.
Maybe it's too much to ask
But please don't hate me now..