I never imagined that I'd have to live
without you one day.
And if that thought crossed my mind,
then that day would be far away.
They say we don't realize what we have
until we lose it. However,
I never thought you'd leave so soon,
I hoped you'd stay with me forever.
Considering you my best friend,
I always counted on you to make my day.
I spent my worst days talking to you,
I got attached in an unexpected way.
I now feel ashamed to finally admit
I actually took you for granted, my dear.
Mostly because you never left my side,
because you were always here.
I did not tell you how amazing you were
as many times as I should.
I did not let myself love you,
as much as I could.
I wish I could travel back in time
and speak all the words I never spoke,
change the past and improve it,
delete the day when your heart I broke.
--
You don't know how mad at you I am,
because your promise you didn't keep-
you never came back to comfort me,
kiss me goodnight and sing me to sleep.
But tomorrow I'll come visit you again
if you can patiently wait.
Please don't worry about me at all,
I'm fine, I just lost some weight.
--
I'm in the grass on my knees,
I left a dozen roses on your grave.
God, tell me, how am I supposed to forget,
fix myself, move on and be brave?
You were right about your friends,
not many came to say goodbye.
But I know you would hate that
since you didn't like seeing people cry.
Every day is another meaningless day.
life is not worth living without you.
Some times I break down but stop,
you wouldn't want me to cry over you.
Remember when you said I didn't love you?
Remember how I looked you in the eyes?
Well if only you could understand
how it feels when your best friend dies.
