His ambiguity is causing me agony
and the vacancy within my core is agonizing me
Now he has the authority of my heart
Oh my beloved, you gave me anguish to cart.
I wish there was someone who could have alerted me
that the glee I felt and the effort I made
Were just a way to form an enormous gap inside of me
But the way he embraces me
Tells me he can feel the echo of the voice screaming inside
And the way he looks at me
can extinguish the blazes of torture I hide.
Now that eras have passed, winter is back...
And so I began to enlist an army of apathy midst me
and I endeavor and I strive
To entomb memories that keep enfeebling me
But the intense feelings I've been trying to fight
and the intolerable truth I strived to hide
broke the barrier I established
and encircled my emotional side
And so the chaos within my head woke me up
and the truth I declined to discharge wind me up
and suddenly I realized, that the euphoria I felt
was just a river of tears I have always held
And now, now I understand
he's vanished, he left
but dear, I can no longer pretend
that nothing happened, nothing is left
and so I woke up and so he went
