It haunts me every night
But it's never the same
As I begin to close my eyes
I know I will not win this game
I remember everything
I begin to feel insane
The monsters are all different
But they all know my name
I feel it all; the sadness
The pain, the loneliness, the tears
I should be used to it by now
This has gone on for years
But just because it happens often
Doesn't make it okay
Every time I wake up
I just want it to all go away
Each one has a different face
A different presence, a different voice
Still every single one tears me apart
And I am never given a choice
Am I such a bad person
To being upon me something so vile
It takes so much from me
Causing to erase my smile
I can't stand the thoughts
Why do you want me to crumble
Just as I start to walk on my own
You trip me; causing me to stumble
I wish the torture would end
But only I can make it halt
And some day I will get to the point
When I can say it's not my fault
That I don't deserve it
You see, I'm not haunted by pain, or tears
Nor demons, sprits, depression, or memories
I'm haunted by fear.
