Is it the end for us

Lies had become part of me
Since I know u has somebody else
I keep lying to my self
To the others
I laugh with no feeling
I wake up from dream of nothing
I become zombie in reality
Like a wind blow in monsoon
Just follow a path where it left
Try to find a missing puzzle
To ensure the circle is complete

U came like a rainbow after heavy rain
Show some guidance from heaven
But when I'm try to reach you,
You missing again
I'm drowned
Should I wait for something unsure
Should I give up from waiting?
Is it what we call love
Or it just a trick that being play buy you
To a puppet like me