?Ar3 You Gone For3v3r?

She left me here alone afraid and in the dark.
She said bye in her sad voice and that was her last remark.

I cried so hard as i watched them drive away.
They drove so far, far away to where they wanted to stay.

She left me so lonely not knowing where life would take me.
And i cry every night and my depression stays here endlessly.

She remembers me as a good girl and has seen me at the top.
But she isn't here now when i want to put my life to a stop.

I hear her voice on the phone and know shes doing fine.
Fine with out me, but cant you see that all i did was whine?

I yelled at her fought with her and tried to be so mean.
And it haunts me everyday like a reoccurring dream.

Are you gone forever or is that just the way i see it?
If you are id probably take me a while to finally believe it.

All i see is darkness behind me and emptiness in my way.
i cry myself to sleep at night and wonder what to say.

She is beautiful,
I am not.

She is happy,
While i cry a lot.

She has a lover,
Like i ever will?

She is living it up,
as my eyes begin to fill.

I don't want her to worry and to see me cry.
I just want her to stay happy, but i will never be..but why?

I love her so much more than a sister should.
I want her to know i care but that i'm just miss-understood.

We were so close but now those days are gone.
And i cry every time i hear our favorite song.

I wish she would've stayed and not left me at all.
i know shes married and in love but my life has started to fall.

I don't wan't to visit because ill only cry some more.
And one of us will leave again and my heart will be so sore.

I love my sister and just want her to know.
That i said okay because i wanted her to be happy..but i never wanted her to go.