"Gazing out on they ocean
Yet it's not the ocean that I see
It's so much deeper
So deep it's inside of me
I pull back not sure I want to know"
^^this is my favorite part! I've always felt the same way about the ocean. It's alluring in a way.
I remember being at that point where I lost myself (well actually someone changed me into a person who I am not) It's a terrible place to be and hard to get back to who you were... But sometimes being in that place will make you a better, stronger person, sometimes you change for the best and aren't really lost, just different. What you are searching for is inside yourself you just need to find it.