Forever Alone

Forever alone forever watching others be happy forever always the last woman to smile to love to feel forever in the shadows of the night only watching smiling a fake smile forever alone in this immortal life losing all hope of true happiness will i ever find my lover my friend my mate the man i was made for? forever i am wishing only wishing to see the man i am to be with is it a hopeful wish? am i only lien to myself? forever is a very long time as i only forever alone only watching the happiness of others i am missing so deeply where are you my lover of lovers? will i ever see you will i ever hear you say i love you my darken lover will you feed my heart back to life or will you only rip out of my chest again and again but i will never will not feel pain so tell me where is my lover of lovers is he feeling what i am at this moment? is his heart braking to know i am here waiting for him missing the touch to feel his kiss is my dream forever sleeping alone forever crying the tearless tears i have no more to share where is my mate where are you tell me you will be mine i already love you but i have never seen you,i don't even know the sound of your voice the color of your eyes to feel you touch no words can say what i would feel or see or even do tell me do you know i am live only waiting for you to hold me to take my pain away the pain i do not feel i wish to see you every night of my life my endless life forever going on an on i am forever alone only the gods can give me a sign now............