Doors

Walking around in my head,
They help close the door to good judgement,
and pave a way to the newly opened door,
To Misery.
Yet, there is no-one else to blame,
And no-one wants to help.
If they do, they can't.
I've shut the doors to trust,
and opened the ones to lies .
I deserve what's coming,
but if I could go back,
I would change everything.
I am blinded by something
Unknown.
That is what scares me the most..
What is wrong?
I never want to know.