I'm addicted to this sickness
I hold it close, my only friend
the numbness that I feel
it's no comparison to the pain underneath that's real
the joy his love brings
I'll never know
unless I let the sickness go
for just as I can't feel the pain,
happiness evades
hollow, numb, stuck in this lifeless state
day to day always the same
I cant decide whether to break free
or to stay
