This Site Saved my Life....

I think this site has saved my life
and given me so much insight,
to see the fears that we all share
in a world full of despair,
when you feel like no one is there,
and you're the only one who cares.

It's hard to move on with a past
that taunts... with the painful memories
of ghosts that haunt. It's hard to see a
future, past, or present...
while presently I feel so tormented.

To break the chains of myself loathing
of secret fears and thoughts unspoken,
unto a world which I lament,
and regret taking every breath.
I keep on trying but get knocked out,
that's not a smile I'm upside down.

The chemicals that call to me
the drink the drugs there serenity,
it only lasts for just a bit,
come back into a life of shit.
I do look forward, I do try harder,
with each and every passing hour.

The joys that come they always fade
searching for those better days,
I hope they come I really do
I just don't know what else to do.
Constantly curious of the other side
always wishing I would die, I hold my breath
and count to five......

I think this site has saved my life.