Why I stopped believing

by Chelsey   Sep 27, 2012


Congratulations. You have done what no one has before.
You have taken away a belief that I use to hold dear,
the belief that everyone deserves second chances.
After giving you your tenth second chance,
after I received my twentieth anxiety attack, after
entering the seventieth migraine, you've done it.

Patience is for those who wish to live their life
in pure frustration, which is why I have none.
To enter your presence was to enter a sand storm.
My eyes were squinted, my hands hover my head.
and I just couldn't inhale without coughing.
Aggravation I don't need.

People never change. Circumstances do.
I just can't handle situations where you think
it's ok not to communicate, where it's ok to control me.
Can't remain blinded to the bouquet of flowers or
the moments you decide to be poetic with apologies.

Second chances are given for those who live their life
knowing there is something wrong with them,
refuse to change it, and take advantage of those
who accept it.

I believe in first chances.
The one you should be thankful for getting
and try your hardest not to mess up. The one
you should cherish, nurture, cater to. The one
that gives non believers a chance to believe again.

Second chances are for the lethargic.
Second chances are for those who ignore the truth.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Jenni Marie

    Wooo. I found it, or at least one, anyway.

    "I particular enjoy the opening congratulations, as it could be interpretated in so many ways. It has the potential to be something happy yet the next two lines cvompletely twist that around and already I find I'm hit with several emotions when I have only just begun reading.
    The last three lines of the opening verse are what I love most about the whole piece. It's so unique and beautifully worded, and the "tenth second chance," "twentieth anxiety attack" and "entering the seventieth migraine" manage to portray such a sense of hopelessness and defeat. It's like saying I really wanted us to be on better terms, I wanted you in my life, but you just wont change no matter how many times I let you try. And that is very sad, but all too common.

    The opening of the next verse is incredibly powerful, emotional, far reaching and hard hitting. I absolutely relish these lines, and as a very impatient person, I can relate and this really stands out to me.

    "People never change. Circumstances do." How apt. I find this to ring with absolute truth, and the fact that so many people claim that they -will- change, yet never do so saddens me, and that fact is portrayed well throughout this entire poem.

    Second to last stanza is beautiful. It's deeply thought provoking and moving and I believe that any person who has been given a second chance by someone will find these lines very powerful and make them realize what a rare oppurtunity they were given. Hopefully that would make them treasure it, and for the people who are still on their first chance, they would value it and not -need- a second.

    Ending, filled with almost as much emotion and depth as the rest of the piece combined. Something that stays with the reader long after reading. I would have liked to see more imagery throughout, there was some yes, but not as much as I would have liked. However, I simply love this whole write."

    ;)

  • 12 years ago

    by Vanesa

    Wow, this is fantastic!
    'Second chances are for those who ignore the truth.'
    What powerful line, and great way to end the poem!
    Man, I love your writing.

  • 12 years ago

    by Wild flower

    It is emotional, and your tone was strong too.

    I love how it showed your devastation at times, while others you stayed strong, faced that person you love cause yyou were hurt, didnt want that again. So you didnt give him another chance.

    Graet job..

    :)

  • 12 years ago

    by Lofallenve

    Another amazing piece!
    The way I read it it came out as a song in my head. What you wrote is so, so true. You just have that knack of writing poems those can relate to. <3 Beautiful.

    5/5

  • 12 years ago

    by Naughtymouse

    Amazing!
    OMG!!!!!!!

    Chelsey....this is such an emotional piece im not even going to try to break it up. Your so right these people who constantly want second chances should be grateful for the first.

    I am in love with this piece and your poetry in general but in this write......you took my breath away with it, just in awe flapping about the place xx

    Outstanding, Nominated, just Truly Epic xx