Journey into my ill mind pt 2

Oh gracious mother was too kind,
Refilling my bottle as thoughts weigh heavy on my mind.
Remembering the first time she appeared,
Took me back through memories I thought disappeared.

~flashback~

It was October of '94,
Halloween excited me and I wanted more.
Trick or treating in the late night,
Turned a wrong corner and witnessed a gang fight.

A man was shot down,
Protecting my little brother I kept my mask on to cover my saddened frown.
The man walks up and points the gun to my head,
I heard a voice coming from my mind and two shots followed as the man was now dead.

When I realized what I did, the voice came back,
Soft whispers to still voice telling to finish the attack.
Without a thought I do as I'm told,
When it was all over, my body felt cold.

Time stopped and the air grew still,
The area around me cold as ice,
Like a banana an image started to peel,
Cold flames emerged but, grew warm to feel nice.

(???)
I'm proud of you young one,
You did well, my son.
Only 5 and already thirsty for blood,
I'll give you a name for the crimson rivers that flood.

(me)
Who are you?
Speak your name or be removed from sight!
Why does standing in front of you make me feel blue?
Take a step in the light!

(???)
I shall step into the light,
But, I must ask why do you have wings if you can't take flight?
(the figure steps into the light)

The thought that red through my head,
An image of a woman dressed in red.
Pale skin, dark hair
All had ceased as it felt like a vacuum had sucked away the air.

(???)
I shall give you these chain in exchange for your broken wings,
I shall stay by your side like knights to kings.
In time others will abandon you,
But in this life and the next I promise to stay true.

I will save you from pain when you are too weak,
I will be your words when you cease to speak.
Receive this gift in exchange for what's broken,
No other words need be spoken.

I did as the strange woman asked even though I had other thoughts,
I held my tongue and received all that she taught.
It seems like yesterday when I made that mistake,
A growing pain lingers as my body and soul still ache.

I never got her name at least not at that time,
But, as the years went on her name dropped like a dime....