Today I felt confused

Today I felt so confused,
What people I Love, I seem to lose,
Lose faith in again,
My life subsides again with no friends,
My life is once again turning cold,
My youthful Attitude turning old,
People are seeing what I am becoming,
The whiff of sucess, I turn running,
I feel happiness and think of guilt,
Guilt tuns to sadness, sadness turns to hate,
I can feel my depression, than to date,
My depression is what I've put up with,
Dark memories are something I don't reminise
My dreams, shattered with words,
No words of support, is what really hurts
No Words of wisdom from people I care about most,
Probably why my worriness for them coast,
No support system what so ever,
Brings my excuses, from better to clever
I lie because I'm afraid of being shot down,
I lie about lies, bringing my smile to a frown,
Today I felt so confused...
I don't like who I am!!