Truths

by MyHalozChokinMe   Sep 30, 2012


I look into the mirror and I can't recognize the stranger staring back at me.

I'm trapped inside my mind, my own penitentiary.

My eyes close, bars keeping me from leaving.

My mouth opens but no words flutter out, they get stuck in my throat and I choke on the smoke brought forth by broken syllables.

I've been ridiculed for so long.

I think it's time to take my life back; back into my own hands but my wrists are broken, trying to lift the weight of the world has rendered them useless.

It has unfurled a new reality and error in our biased formality.

It's called truth.

The words we use to express the here and now, the then and there...

I wonder where I've gone and I wonder what I've done.

Stepping into a new time and a new place with and old soul and a borrowed face.

I still have my old one but it's been replaced.

Replaced by the facade of change; a change long coming but never initiated.

I can't forget who I was and I can't remember who I've become.

I've been lost in translation. A trangsression gone wrong.

A weak woman trying to be strong. The rights words to the wrong song.

I can't remember the words and I can't remember the name...

All I recall is my work being in vain.

I fought for something I didn't believe in.

I've lost everything, but it's okay.

Someday I'll win it all back.

It's a gamble.

Life's a game of poker and I'm staring at death, his face shrouded in shadow with jack shit in my hand.

For some reason I can't get past his toothy grin so I lay my cards down and go all in...

You'd do the same thing...

Bet it all, knowing you won't win.

What's the point of of living if we don't risk it?

We make mistakes and we learn from them but repeating them over and over has become my sick trend.

I am my own life and I am my own disease.

I am my own safeguard and I'm down on my knees.

I've earned this life but it all ends the same....

Once I've earned something,
I just throw it away.

~Club Challenge~

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  • 12 years ago

    by Baby Rainbow

    I loved loved this poem! It was so in depth and even fromt he begiining you open with a line very honest and one which so mnay can automatically agree with and relate to. So many of us hate looking in the mirror because we fear what we will see.

    I think it's time to take my life back; back into my own hands but my wrists are broken, trying to lift the weight of the world has rendered them useless

    - great idea using your wrsits breaking to emphasis what a heavy burden you wery carrying and how much it was weighing you down. This was really clever.

    There is so much I could say about this poem, I relate to most of it and your title is so fitting because after reading each line I think that it sooo true! I love how you state that you cant forget who you were but at the same time you cant remember this person you have became, it is such a horrible feeling to go through and can leave you so alone and weak feeling.

    I fought for something I didn't believe in.

    I've lost everything, but it's okay.

    Someday I'll win it all back.

    It's a gamble.

    - this part here was breath taking for me, because there have been so much things which I believed so much in but by following this I have lost so much in the process. I love how you turn this negative thing around by adding in your attitude of positivity which you say you will gain all of this back.

    Your last line got me thinking, and left me wondering why? Why you do this? My own thoughts are that once we get something we get scared of losing it again so we just push it away. This way it is in our control and we don't lose it, we choose to give it away. In a complicated way it hurts less this way.

    Anyway. I really loved this poem and thought you done amazing for the challenge. Well done

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