Where I live
There are no lights,
No mirrors,
And no happiness
I hate it,
But I can't leave
This is where
Everyone left me
They all walked away
I guess they all had reasons
Its okay
I hate me too
I use to cry
But once
My eyes dried up
The tears became red
And derived from my flesh
I converted into a ghost
The mirrors
Were all smashed
I couldn't look
At the monstrosity
Staring back at me
People say 'I'm pretty'
Such a lie
Not even
The scars are beautiful
I always have a jacket
Not because
The temperature is cold
But because
I am cold
I can only reveal my true self
In the shadows
I've always preferred
The darkness
Where I can fade into
The nothingness
That I have become
Where me and my demons
Join as one
No one judges me here
And the obscurity can consume
My soul
Happiness vanished
Between the fights,
The isolation
And the put-downs
My smile disappeared
Thrown-out somewhere
Along the way
Hiding places were found
Instead of safety
Friends were lost
Instead of gained
People were used
Instead of befriended
Skin was scarred
Instead of healed
Hearts were stoned
Instead of loved
Acceptance failed
Trust was gone
And family didn't exist
Lives were ruined
Forever
But I am not
Like you
I have never been
Like you
You would never understand
But none of that matters
Because you don't see me
You never have...
