Back then and Now

With tears I wont forget
and a feeling I regret
While my words turn to rain
on this not so sunny day
I think of all the times
I tried to put my words to rhyme
With countless nights
I've battled myself in fights
For I've said goodbye
far too many times
Fighting against one
itsn't all that fun
With battle scars
and movies stars
I get through my day
pretending along the way
This is my life
all because of the knife.