Torturing Myself with the Promise You've Kept

Stephen, Precious (random: I wish one could actually call people that as a term of endearment, not like babe and stuff, but more sincere with its actual meaning, I will do that from now on, just so you know),

your title displays negativity and almost feels as though you were bickering about it... not complain, but actually bicker, childlike. The pain that is actually caused by her promise is certainly serious and hurtful, but that does not change the fact that the title left that impression on me. Although I thought it was tough to believe in a way, as promises are usually positive(to me for sure). However, I was eager to read more and perhaps figure out what the promise actually was.

I'm a cheesy person by heart and that is why I loved the first two verses, it is just so beautiful even if it has a bad touch. The thing is that if I wasn't I might have thought that it would be sugercoated or exaggerated(, which it really is not), but I know how sincere you are and this poem is just as sincere, that is why it touched me.
The idea about getting wasted on "intoxicating memories" is tightly arranged because of how well it fits together and it does not feel tawdry, but it rather embraced me like fragrances might. I say that because memories are usually in our mind, but if it was a physical thing, I'd imagine for it to be like fog. Depending on the memory it would either smell good or not and the more present the memory the foggier(Is that right?) and once it lifts it would only be mist. That is why it made me feel like that.

As soon as I finished the first stanza I assumed that you wouldn't lose one bad word about her, but I was proved wrong. Anyhow, you still want her presence and something from her, no matter how disappointing it might turn out to be.

The third stanza made me guess that she's leading you on in a way.. you probably couldn't just move on either way, but her actions aren't helping you. Although it all was a blessing to you at once, he circumstances and her behaviour make it a pain now.

The honesty in your last stanza is the most moving part in my opinion because it grabbed my heart and soemwhat shook it, so that I awake(you know how much I relate). I envy you for being honest enough to yourself as to see that you cannot let go because of how much she means to you and how much you two experienced, yet I also believe that even if you tried, it would feel like betrayal to you. So give yourself time and while you do keep writing these poems, that move and touch me... so that eventually I'll smil with and for you because of what you will experience one day(something utterly and absolutely positive absolutely!!! That is what I hope for you!!).

I am sorry for going into this so much... I hope you don't mind, but I felt the need to!

Wow this poem is sooo beautiful and i once could've related to this poem but since im engaged and happily too at that it's very beautiful the emotions and the images are soo strong that if i was down i would've cried lol! good job my dear

This poem is amazing
I could totally relate to what you wrote but from my own way cause poems like this one can be read and interpreted in a whole many ways
I think this can be either of two first a normal break up where she left you behind with only the promises and her sweet word that she used to tell you but now nothing only your memories remain
or she really had to leave you for a job or for any important reason and she promised to come back but she never fulfilled her promise and you were left behind with your doubts if she is going to ever come again
anyway I might be wrong but this how I read it

I liked your wording a lot too and your title hmm it was nice.
Great Job

I wish I wouldn't relate to this poem and feel it as much as I do...sigh.

Will come back.

This poem is heartbreaking Hope,

I stumbled with the title and I like it. It grabbed my attention though, I got a bit confused when i finished reading it the first time, after second read, I understood.

The twist that you gave made this piece heartbreaking.

and also me think.