*sorry, this poem is pretty long and a little scattered. i started it one day and finished it a while later. things had changed by the time i finished it. (hence the ending)*
It feels like just yesterday that i broke your heart for the second time
That look in your eyes is still fresh in my memory and i can still feel the tears running down my cheeks
I'll never forget the way you so gently touched my face and told me you didn't want to lose me this way
I kept thinking that at any moment your warm lips would softly caress mine in an attempt to get me to change my mind and stay with you
I didn't know what to do if that should happen
I hated the long awkward silences that absorbed most of our time spent in that room
I wanted to just leave and have it be over and i didn't want to have to say anything
I just wanted you to know how i felt and i wanted YOU to be the one to break up with ME
For once i wanted to be the one left standing alone not knowing what to do with myself
I felt the guilt surge through my body when i heard you punched the car till you couldn't lift your arm
I wanted to absorb the pain of your broken bones and magically heal your every wound both physical and emotional
I wanted to share with you how sorry i was and how bad i felt, but i could hardly look at you without breaking down and crying the tears i no longer had
But now it's over and things are back to the way they used to be, apart from the fact you think you still love me
