Sorry Mom

Dear Mom,

I wish for you that I could be who you wanted me to be.

But I cant, mom.

I wish you could be proud of me,

but i only disappointed you again, mom.

I'm sorry for the things i said,

I really didn't meant it that way, mom.

I wish that I was a little smarter.

Like you always were, mom.

But I'm stupid, all though i go to school.

I wish you could feel what I feel RIGHT now, mom.

Every single muscle in my body wants to cut again.

I try to think of you, mom.

But then I saw your face again, full of sadness when you look at me,

and what I've become, mom.

You called me a vampire.

That hurts me mom.

I wish for you that you could be proud of me,

But I only disappoint you, mom.

You don't have to be ashamed of me any more.

I'm gone now, mom.

I'm sorry that I wasn't the child you wanted me to be.

Goodbye Mom.

But remember...Ill always love you.