I Just Can't

Smile when I feel broken
When the world is falling apart
When the pieces of my heart shatter
Smile when nothing's alright...
I just can't

Laugh when I want to cry
When I feel so empty inside
When I hear my heart cracking
Laugh when nothing's okay...
I just can't

Go on like nothing ever happened
Like everything is just dandy
Like things won't get worse
Go on like you didn't hurt me...
I just can't

Live like I have a reason
Like I actually have a purpose
Like I deserve to
Live like there's nothing wrong...
I just can't

Dream like I've got a future
Like my life will only get better
Like I have no care in the world
Dream like I've got you to do it with...
I just can't

I just can't smile
Because I don't have you
Because you were my only reason
I just can't do it...
Not when my world is falling apart

I just can't laugh
Because you're not here
Because I don't have a thing to laugh about
I just can't do it...
Not when all I want to do is cry

I just can't go on
Because I'm not strong enough
Because it's just too hard to do
I just can't do it...
Not when I'm broken inside

I just can't live
Because my life doesn't have meaning
Because I'm not worth the life I live
I just can't do it...
Not when I feel like I don't deserve to

I just can't dream
Because I have no wishes left
Because it's not going to turn out wrong
I just can't do it...
Not when you're nowhere to be found

I'm so sorry....
But I just can't </3

Written: October 30, 2012