Geez woman, this was so sad. :( Some people can relate to this and it's just... Gah powerful, sad, and can make a person see exactly how you feel. Keep that pretty head up hun, things are always better in the long run. (5)

Vent gone wrong? I don't think so... It was a passionate and metaphoric way of expressing your feelings, and it was a powerful one at that... not going to break it down... no need to... just want to say a few things that touched me if I may... 3am being your friend is something that a writer does often, because that is the time when the spirit within can flow without distraction... very powerful statement right there... and on a personal note for me: I wrote a poem several years back about a mule... it was metaphoric... and it is symbolic in many ways to the feelings you have expressed... powerful indeed... and just so you know your not alone... I too keep tissues in my pillow case. <3

You honestly poured out your heart here. Very heart wrenching and sad. In life, its whether we choose to lie static and let life to drive us to cringing moments. Perhaps, in our favour we wake up and say no to all trials and pessimism. We live our lives conforming to how we choose to lay on our beds. Rumpled and dirty or cleaned and smoothly layed. Its an individual choice.

So all I'll say is not give in to your 3 am buddy. Don't allow her to be ticking on, waiting to bottle your pangs in its stroke of minutes and hours. Take a walk, listen to a song, watch a movie, call a friend, cook a dish, play a game, be in the company of your beloved ones. And your favourite, let it all out on your paper, computer or note application on phone; penning an awesome poem.

Just don't let unfathomable lifes' questions muddle you. Always stand up and fight against your emotions. You live you life to attain your goals, don't let life drive you to injustice.
A good message to all and relatable as well. You always captivate me with your powerful thoughts. Lovely! :) ..

Chelsey,

In my own opinion, this:

'Why did I concuss my pen after throwing it against the wall?
......to avoid writing this.'

is truly, really far from weird.

You know... I have no idea why I can't find my ramblings any good. I find yours perfect. Heartfelt writings are the best.

I especially love the third stanza and the rider/flogger metaphor, you have a way with words. Has anybody told you this? Really, I felt like you're writing a short story filled with emotions and similes. I just loved that.
I love the whole metaphor anyway. The mule...very interesting.

I am nominating this but I need you to correct few typos so that when it gets to the front page, nobody bites us both.
: P
'whose' in the last stanza = who's.
'its' in the first should have an apostroph.

:) That's it.
Truly impressive.

"My
dreams replay
voices that I wish to snatch and cradle, but
that's the same
thing as touching them...which I cannot do"
^
Absolutely love that.

You know, weird things are beautiful. They're different and they stand out. Your title really made me curious and I just had to read this. And it felt like it was a journey reading through this. A bit random in some parts; straying, but they meet at one point: sadness. And it is genuine.

A few thoughts-

"but its a fact, you can not get back what
yesterday stole."
^
'its' needs an apostrophe. The comma can be replaced with 'that' or a colon.

"carry others burdens."
^
others'

"The one that
just gets sunburn,
but whose back doesn't tighten, feet doesn't blister"
^
I thought 'that' could be replaced with: who. And sunburn would be better in its past tense, perhaps?

Great write, Chelsey. Much enjoyed.