Nothing to Lose

by MyHalozChokinMe   Nov 1, 2012


I need to get out, get away.

Tear from these chains that keep me
here, leave this life behind.

People pulling at my seams and I can
only give so much-
A change of scenery would suit me well.

I'll leave with just the clothes on my back
and every penny to my name.

The air is stale with the same breaths from
the same people, the people that I once
couldn't get enough of.

I've made promises that I can't keep anymore,
that I'd stay here forever, for those dependent
hearts. They say they need me but my own
soul is rotting.

I'll break all ties, become my true-self.
I'll be cultured, mysterious, interesting.
I'll be "that girl from out-of-town," sitting
by the bar, smokey eyes and sensuous
lips, tragically beautiful, another tortured,
artistic soul.

Away from the monotony of this coast,
I'll be someone new. The someone I
haven't seen since my angsty youth.

I'll be one of those skipped-town,
traveled-the-world, made a name
for herself kind of girls.

I'll be the one who actually acted, rather
than one of those who sat on concrete
slabs, inhaling nicotine and tar saying
" I won't be here forever."

I'll be the one who did it.

And, if I collide with exhaustion somewhere
east of here, I still won't come back.

I'll make a home somewhere, in a place that
doesnt hold me down.

I might collapse, tears might fall but I'm willing
to bare my heart.

My only fear is that I'll know others well
before I know myself.

There's nothing to lose.

Dusk has grown old and I cant stay here any longer.

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  • 12 years ago

    by Chelsey

    Omg Cara.......if only I could express to you what this poem means too me..I'm not sure if I can but I will try....this poem reached out and shook me. Seriously....

    I'm counting down the days to leave my city. I'm getting the hell out of here, forgetting anyone who ever was or is...starting a new life, meeting new people...finding myself....I wont go in to my plan or where I'm moving, but just know I don't think it matters what kind of poem you write, its always going to speak to someone.. this topic specifically spoke to me...

    Too be honest..I don't think anythings wrong with this concept. Focus on you! That's what I'm doing. I'm focusing on myself, and for people like you and I who clearly care too much for other people...my family and friends use to be my reasoning for not wanting to move...

    Screw that. You know the annoying phrase YOLO?..how true is it though......we only live once, we have to do for us at some point and go find a place that makes us happy...

    Ugh. I could comment for hours on this...mostly just the subject. But the poem itself I loved!! No structure...and no structure poems are awesome when written like this..just thought after thought...I love this.

  • 12 years ago

    by Naughtymouse

    Ugh....i know this feeling too well. And as always you delivered it flawlessly...the need to break away and and get back to who we were is a strong urge indeed, to be anonymous for a change and to leave all ties behind and start fresh is so relatable. There can be so many reasons for this and i know many will be able to get this piece.

    But its not just about getting away, its about the procrastination of it too, how people say they go and do this and that but they only do half....they get to where they wanna go but dont do the things they wanna do when they get there.....i could be way off but i like the msg in this piece.

    Awesome as usual :-)

    • 12 years ago

      by MyHalozChokinMe

      Thank you Ben <3

      EDIT: And you're "spot on," mostly :P

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