I cry 24/7, I laugh at the most stupid things including my icy jokes, I get excited about pretty much anything that will help me escape my boring life even for a little while, I get emotional all the time, I am disgusted by blood yet I self harm and even like the way my pink scars make the difference in my pale skin. I feel like a monster who controls not only my body but also my every thought. Nothing I do seems normal to other people and I bet every single one of them is jugding me in their minds, they're just not saying the word weirdo aloud. I have come to the point where I just don't know who I am anymore, I have forgotten why and where and how and when I became who I am today but one thing I can say for sure is I don't like myself right now. And you? You make me feel like a person, you help me understand parts of me I couldn't come to terms with, you make me love myself even when I hate everything about it. And for that, I will never be able to pay you back.
