After the breakup

I keep telling myself that we are done.
Everyday, I tell myself, my feelings for you; there are none.

It aches and churns inside of me,
I have opened my eyes, I finally see.

I am freed, from a love that dragged me down.
forever loving you, as my love... you tried to drown.

You walked up to me and took my heart,
Years passed, you stood before me, ripped me apart.

I forever hold onto the memory of when you left me be.
Forever a memory inside me, you setting me free.

Seasons change, my feelings rearrange.
I'm trying to figure out, what between us changed.

Its been some time since you have left me like this.
Its been forever since a man has given me a kiss.

I will forever wonder why we ended the way we did.
Forever inside me will i feel like a fool, like an innocent little kid.

My heart drifts upon feelings I still don't know,
can feelings surface again? this can I ever show?

I am still waiting for the day that I can love another man like I did you.

he shall paint my heart with colors and not in blue