Brittany... you have expressed your feelings very well... this is so sad and heartfelt and I am sorry that you feel this way... but girl, look in that mirror again, because what I see is a beautiful young lady, inside and out, who is vibrant and full of life!! hugs you...

Brittany, I also agree with Angie. But I'm proud that you've taken these emotions (obviously strong ones) and have put them down. Writing is the best type of therapy. Our minds are always our worst enemies. You are perfect just the way you are.

I'll leave you with this quote:

"Drag your thoughts away from your troubles... by the ears, by the heels, or any other way you can manage it." Mark Twain

Just remember to take a minute to smile (:

Yeah, I kind of am going through a depression and I know how I want to look I just don't know how to get there. Iv'e tried healthy and unhealthy ways and Nothing works But I am trying to motivate myself One month at a time. And trying to look in my mirror and be able to smile at myself. It's really hard sometimes because I just want to throw a rock at it so I wouldn't have to walk by and want to kill myself.
I am not really sure where to start so I just kind of randomly started. And I hope that I can make my goal. Which would make me too happy with myself. haha! And Thanks for the quote! It really does speak to me.