You lay there childlike
And in a voice that sent shivvers down my spine
Insisted you were ok
But the pretence, you fought so hard to maintain,
Was for nought
We knew what you could not say
We saw the inner turmoil,
The doubt that you resisted
While drowning in your head
And temporarily our roles reversed
Like a infant I craddled you in my arms
I was the big sister instead
As you lay bewildered
I sang songs to soothe you to sleep
Your eyes searching the sky
Strocked your hand gently
Smiling to match your own attempt
Chocking back the tears I would cry
Forever more I will remember
The time that I
Only a child in many ways
Had to nurse you back to health
While looking in your eyes
And seeing your grave
I had to pretend I didn't notice
When you would faulter
Or delay
W all had to bury you
In our heads a million times over
While you insisted you were ok.
