I really love your poem. It sounds as If you want to let it out, But you know something is holding you back to where you can't let it out.
You should never give up on something, No matter how hard it gets. The key to life is happiness and you should try to do things that make you happy.
Crying is okay to do too. When you cry, cry really hard and just let everything out. Even yell if you have too. It does make you feel better.