Migraine

Ok, so i take the other one back, this is perhaps my favourite from you now! I can feel everything in here Halo, sadness, depression, frustration, anger, loneliness. It has it all.

Head pounding.

Her unexplainable achings are an earthquake
splitting down the central fault line of her
forehead, parallel to her life.

This is just like a Geometry problem with no simple
equation and a giddy satisfaction at the end.

- This opening made it describe such powerful pain that people have during a migraine, and you connected this well to how you feel right now. What I got from the ending of this part though was that although people can take a tablet for a headache, it takes a while to work and then only sometimes we are left with it lingering in the end. This too with the emotion side of it, tomorrow might not be as painful but it still hurts and lingers.

Her whole life is a series of unknowns, unable to understand
what it was she did that was so wrong.

Her quest to make everyone else happy
has come off in desperation.

Intuition is mistaken as paranoia.

- this is such a sad thought, that you ebgin to question what you done wrong in life ebcause you feel you are being punished in some way for something inn order to expreience this. Like it something you deserve but just don't know why. The paranoia line is very clever, it shows what we do/feel but someone else picks it up as something completely different.

She gnaws at her fingernails because she cannot
think of a better way to pass the time.

Stuck in this place where she can
neither laugh nor complain.

Security blanket, where have you gone?

- these lines really touched me, this is where my tears came :( to feel trapped in that place sounds so lonely and like you often feel you will be there forever. Then to see the security blanket, this broke my heart. It is like the ultamite pain that a child feels when they need this blanket to offer them comfort and reassurance, it shows how much your pain is that you just wish you could have something to make it secure again and ease it away. It makes me want to teleport over there!

She still pushes people away, forever
the acceptable acquaintance.

- when we have been hurt we do this as a reflex because it is what we learn we have to do in order to not be hurt again.

Wishing for drunken rage or death, something
to offset this pattern of moderate pain.

- the desperation for it to end here is so strong and I know the feelin of thinking even death is easier than feeling this pain.

The list at the end is very clever, when you say don't and then say why, becasue it is like a broken record for them all and you are tired of them all.

Then finally your ending...

Watch her eyes and listen to the words
that she is screaming out everyday.

- you can imagine how much these words strike me. The pain behind someones eyes can sometimes be so clear but it just takes someone to look. They are too busy waiting for the words from your lips but they do not take time to hear the words coming from the desperate and lost look in your eyes.

This did make me cry, for one because I can relate to it, and it is again like you have been inside my head. But secondly because I know it is you who wrote this, I know you wrote this from your heart and meant every word and I just wish I had the words to say to make this pain go away.

<3 keep writing, I know you can get through this and all these things will make you stronger xxx