Halo!! This has to be one of my favourites from you, I love it.
The way it is like a converstaion with yourself makes it a very great poem to read because we have all had these.
Your emotions right now are pretty mixed up and I can imagine they are very hard to deal with while still having to get through the day. This poem shows some of these thoughts.
I can relate to what you mean, about looking in the mirror, sometimes it can trigger certain things for us whether it be a look in our eyes, something we see in our expression or our appearance from the outside. It can kick start a thought process which leads to poems like these.
Loved this and all I can say is, I wish I could give you a mirror that reflected what we all see. xx