I really wanted you.
And want you STILL
But there's something unexplained in my mind.
God knows what it is. It has built up barriers between my heart and my feelings.
Though there's a bridge to connect me to your heart
The way is not that easy; it's very difficult to me to cross that bridge to come to you as I feel
Why?
I don't have the answer.
So how can I help with it?
I have no idea.
You should forgive me for that's what makes me weak
And is stealing my strength
It never lets the feeling I have on you to run through or even to fade away
It moves through my blood so madly
I'm just messed up and lost inside the feelings of yours and mine
But I know my heart, and I can hear it says that it needs you very much
That is why it beats hard when I remember you and even your name
But I can't explain these to you
And you are nervous
You don't understand myself
I know you've had an investigation on me
And because I hid my real feelings,
You just assumed what my answer would be if you asked me whether I liked you
You thought I would refuse you right?
And you would have hurt.
So you decided to turn the mess fall upon me
(But the truth is I really like you though I am not strong enough to tell you "yes")
And as I never expected
You just started another trial
That I hate the most!
Changing yourself time to time
Like you wanted me to know you were second to none
The reason I don't exactly know
That might because you misunderstood me
You thought I would never ever make any attention to your feelings;
And your attempts would go in vain
You just thought; but that was not the truth
You didn't know that and still not knowing
And you know? You've broken my heart.
You started to appear and disappear in my life, like hide and seek
Why were you doing that; to hurt me?
Whatever...you did that well!
I was hurt more than you wanted me to be hurt
That was all because of my own weakness
But I hope you remember
I always tried to be someone good for you, isn't it?
