Try to stop

Futile is my trials
I've traveled too many miles
I've fallen too hard
My heart broken in shards

I've convinced myself
You are a friend
I've told myself
Again and Again

But every time
I tell myself that
I know that I'm lying
Just like a rat

But it works for a while
I advert my eyes
From your face
Though my heart, it cries

I can't keep it up long
And soon I've fallen
Shamelessly staring
My attention you've stolen

Of course as I stare
I can't meet your gaze
And my courage has fallen
Left to the blaze

I move my attention
To a bird passing the window
As it soars though the clouds
A blush is beginning

I'll love him forever
But never admit it
I know it's not clever
But my courage has failed

I'll try to stop,
This shameful heart
I should have stopped it
Before its start