You Tear Me Apart

You tear me apart,
With every word you say that stings.
You torture my heart,
With the let downs only you can bring.
How much more abuse can I take,
From this nightmare I pray to awake.
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I thought a friend was supposed to be there for you,
Not the finger that laughs at you when you've falling.
Not the descriptions of your flaws that you have been calling,
But that's what you've turned into.
A hole in my heart,
What tears me apart.
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You use to be my friend,
And I was truly thankful.
To have such joy till the end,
Why has my dear and trustworthy turned sorrowful.
A living pit,
And there's no full way out of it.
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When no one understands me,
That use to be when you did.
When I needed a hand,
You use to jump up.
Now when no one understands me,
You make me a total outcast.
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You used to be my shield,
The greenest of fields.
As I was getting made fun of,
Pocked at,
Stabbed by the ones I trusted most,
You were there to say.
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"Leave her alone!"
You had my back.
Always let me know I belonged,
My distraction when I was scared of the thunder.
And I never had to wonder,
For a while you weren't the hunter.
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When I didn't know what to say,
And often I still think there's no way.
My protection when the walls were falling down,
My laughter when tears poured down my frown.
The way out when all else trapped me,
My advice when I didn't know what to see./My advice when I didn't know what my choices could be./My advice when I didn't know what my best choice was to be.(use last one)
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And nowadays For you to blow away,
But still I see it everyday.
The part of you that slowly decays,
Because this world's a ruthless bandit.
The unrecognizable force,
The one that makes everything worse.
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You've turned into the bully,
The way that makes my hopes seem silly.
The one that lets me down ,
When you were who I was counting on.
As the respect I had for you is gone,
And the air we breathe feels wrong.
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Within me blood steeps down,
Pulls me to thorny ground.
Dyes my bones with blood,
My life slips from me as it becomes a death's flood.
And these bruises tattoo me,
Can't fade because of how much I feel.
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because of how much I care,
And the fight between us that is shared; oh the fight,
The darkness that entombs us,
Rusts our coat.
Oh the fight,
The darkness that covers the light.
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If I had the nerve to say,
The words that run by me each day.
If I had the guts to pour out,
What my rotting away is about.
Then maybe you would see,
There's not victory in hurting me.
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Then I would hit you with the might,
Of words of darkness that since have covered my light.
Tell you what's hidden behind my mask of delight,
Rope back my wrists.
Tug back my fists,
That always start the fight.
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I have something to say,
So don't turn away.
Because there's something you can't break,
A expression that you can't deny.
A hallway full of aches,
But a reason to stay awake.
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The guitar in my hand,
The pen that knows when I can't stand.
The words I'll sing to the fan,
That spins above my head.
Pretending I'm dead,
And witnessing feedback I was misled.
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The bass guitar,
Will or will not take me far.
You can't whack me with the frets; they have meaning,
Or choke me with the strings.
I'll reach my destination,
Without you dissing my fashion.
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I'll swing the notes up to the sky,
Write lyrics about you that you shouldn't deny.
But I know you'll try,
And it is not fine.
Not fine,
Not fine; to cross the line.
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The side of you I know says goodbye,
The clasp of joy has fled sky high.
But I'm walking with a passion that's elaborate and fine,
Even when like a bully.
You cross the line,
Many say You're a bully.

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