That place, I finally reached it,
Rock bottom, nothing beneath it
I'm here for a reason
Time to pick up all the pieces
I had to reach this point, to build myself back up,
Find the girl who can deal with it all and never take a second look,
Live the life I'm meant to
Not be forced to deal with this anguish, and all the issues I'm strapped with,
If I could go back and confront ever guy that traumatized me, and messed me up in the head,
Maybe I wouldn't feel so mislead, out of control, needing a zen of my own
It's time like this that I wish I could rewind, finish what I started in therapy the first time
Then maybe I wouldn't be who I see in the mirror,
On the outside I have it all together,
On the inside I'm.being eaten alive by these demons, theses monsters, these horrific memories,
The anxiety, the fear, the PTSD,
These thing consume me,
Trapping me,
No mercy.
This point I've reached is called rock bottom,
It's time to climb my way back up,
I'm not a quitter, its time to overcome, I can't stop until I've won.
10.24.12
