Oh Halo. :( such pain through your words I just want to make a magic potion to make it all ok again.
I can see that you are hurting very deeply but you still have to be this strong statue on the outside for others and for the world to see, yet inside all this poison is killing you and you feel unable to let it out.
Just know that you are strong, so very strong and you will get through this, I know you will. xxxxxxx