I used to have such a miserable life
One I solved by using a knife
It's been a long time
Since I've added a new scar
But I know in my heart
I'll always be in recovery
I'm always going to be a cutter
Deep inside that's something I'll always be
I covered up all of my perfect little scars
With a tattoo of a shooting star
It seemed fitting
Considering I grew up wishing on a star
I added a quote around it that says:
Life isn't about finding yourself
Life is about creating yourself
It's my inspiration to live a meaningful life
I'm going to try my best to never give in
To that deadly temptation
But it's always in the back of my mind
Slowly calling out to me
I no longer want to be that girl
I'm so ready to move on
I'm trying to heal but
I'm always going to be a cutter
I'll always remember the way it made me feel
I'd feel stressed
And it provided me the perfect form of relief
It was something I could control
Even when life got out of hand
It was always there
It was always an option
But now I'm stronger than that
I won't let myself rely on something
That's so deadly
I mean if I cut too deep just one time
That'd be it
A temporary solution
Would then become a permanent end
And I'm not quite ready to give up
I made that mistake once before
And I don't plan on doing it again
But the truth is
I'm always going to be a cutter
But hopefully I'll stay being a cutter in recovery
