I've have never experienced that bubbly love that everyone apparently has...
Stolen kisses,
"say cheese" camera pics,
"no you hang up first" phone calls...
"I can't stop thinking about you" text messages.
My love has been horrendous and terrifying and painful...
I have experienced...
"please stop hurting me"
"I'm sorry, I'll make it better"
"I'll try harder just don't leave"
"please stop insulting me"
So while everyone around me, receives their texts, silently I wish I were them,
I cry with invisible tears,
Inaudible Screams
And fake smiles...in public of course
"I don't know how love could do this to me"
Anthem of my pitiful life...
I'm in bewilderment that my tear ducts are still fully functioning...
More crying to go perhaps?
I was a firm believer in that miracle creating love..
Avid dreamer and practitioner of that
"I'll never let go jack"
"no its not gonna be easy, its gonna be really hard, but I want you"
"none shall perish, none shall die"
"ever thine,ever mine,ever ours"
But as the faiths would have it,
my love never reciprocated these quotations.
And after all the sleepless nights, and..
" renelle, don't throw up your food"
" to cut or not to cut" -( refrain of the century)
"he's not gonna call, give up, move on"
I have faced the bitter fact...
That for some cruel, lesson seeking reason,
I was destined for this,
That the one person that I loved more than reading,
Would be the one person to bless me with such unforgettable hurt.
So for now my refrain is "you and I once we were lovers" bless you Luther Vandross..
Till that almost perfect knight in shining armor,
completes my refrain,
Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours..
