It makes me sad to read this and I would truly hope that this is not really the way you feel. You are alive, you are smart, you are young, you have your life in front of you. Happiness comes from within, not from others or things. I know you can be happy if you will begin to like yourself and give others a chance. I hope that you do not feel I am being to harsh, I suppose I have been greatly affected by the shooting today of 27 people, 20 little children, their lives ended and that makes me so sad. It is such a waste.

It feels like you have put yourself within a prison
where the open air or rather freedom is waiting to
take you in but you are reluctant to hold its hand.
I hope that whatever problem you are undergoing
will soon dissipate..take care..

Meena and Sylvia have said it all. You're a bright person, Ben. You have a good heart and a purpose on this planet. I hope one day you'll see yourself the way the rest of us do. Strong poem as always. *hugs* -Nik