Burnout

by Rusheena   Dec 21, 2012


It won't stop coursing through my veins,
the venom that will result in my overdose.
Ignorant bliss never numbed like this before,
but that could be because I've stopped resisting.
I can't pull the needle out of my arm yet,
or else, I won't get the full effect.
It won't be the same, without the full effect.

It feels so good, but I can feel brain matter
dripping down the sides of my head,
seeping into my coarse hair, and falling onto the ground.
I can hear my amygdala slowly sizzling,
like sweat on a hot sidewalk.
But I'm still alive,
despite my heart pounding out of my shirt,
my shirt that's starting to stick to me...
But I'm still breathing, and I won't stop, until He tells me to

Nonetheless, my ribcage is bruised from inhaling.
Maybe, I should lay off of the paint for a while...
Now, let's try to find a place to sit, since it's too far to walk to the E.R.
No one's sitting on that park bench over there, but I need some shade.
No trees, nothing but bushes.
I guess I'll just have to lie here, and wait to catch a bystander's attention.
If I lie here long enough, someone will come.

Just remember to--

*Inspired by "Black Nurse" by Glassjaw

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  • 11 years ago

    by Tara Kay

    I don't know why I haven't seen this until now, but I am pleased that my attention was drawn to it, because I love the descriptions, and how the wording was smooth throughout...
    It's strange as I want to say that this was beautiful, yet it was dark and creepy in places, it had an elegance to it, and that is unusual, to read something on this level with that touch that makes it unique and powerful.

    I love the use of the "bystander", I absolutely love this word, its so poetic and mysterious, and how the ending didn't come to an abrupt halt, it just ended in a way that made me think and I didn't want it to be answered, I like that it's just left with our own thoughts...

    Rusheena, I really admire this piece in so many ways, it is really well penned and creative...great write

    xxx

  • 11 years ago

    by Chelsey

    Man this is crazy..I like the introduction of body parts here and how it had this gory dark feel when reading it...very nice wording!

    Love the ending...leaving it up to us to remember what?? We will never know, have to figure it out for ourself.

    Nice write doll!

  • 11 years ago

    by zombiepikachu

    I loved this! This was beautiful. I loved all of the description of the brain melting. It's a shocking image yet the way you portray it... So normal and calmly. It's brilliant c: great job!
    I actually chuckled at the inclusion of the bystander effect. I'm not sure if it was intentional, but was still great. I felt hopeless after I figured that no one would help the speaker.
    This was beautiful! C:
    -z

    • 11 years ago

      by Rusheena

      Thanks! And yes, it was intentional, haha!

  • 11 years ago

    by Khalid M Darwish

    Good metaphor, similes and wording in the second stanza. I'm surprised why they don't rate this poem until now. It's really loveable piece.

    • 11 years ago

      by Rusheena

      Thanks, Khalid! I'm pretty obscure, always have been, haha. jk Hopefully, It'll get more attention in the future.

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