Disaster

Every time now when
i look myself
at the mirror.

I feel the person
I was isn't me
right now.

Am being striped
demolished and
crushed.

Faith of mine
is stolen and
trapped.

Feel like what
I had is
shattered

I am smiling
but that's just
a fake.

I am insane
with mind
alert.

Time has been
hurting and
is cruel

Heart-aching surprise
again and again
come across

Failure in every
aspects of so-called
real life

Years are passing
with loads of
tears.

Acting strong even
crying hard
inside.

Living a life that
someone gave
as a gift.

But now feel as
living is like
a sin.

Grief,sadness
and tears are
always mine.

Seldom leaves
and forget
to shine.

These stay as if
they are what
I owe.

Act as nothing as
I don't to create
a show.

Hurt more when
someone say
word sorry

Guilt and shame
first words in
my dictionary

Please give me
a quilt to cover
my face.

Its always that
failure come
and chase.

Don't know what
am i upto this
long wait.

(Its what i am feeling right now and typed it to make myself free cause sometimes there is no one to share what you feel and there's somewhere a fear that they might call you mad ..)