I wonder...

by Jenni Marie   Dec 23, 2012


Sometimes...

Sometimes, I want to write but the words won't come out
and I'm left struggling with all these pent up feelings
jumbled thoughts, contradictory emotions
mental and emotional state...

chaotic.

And I wonder,
I wonder;
what does life have in store for me,
is this really all there is
or is there something
better?

Waiting for me, just around
the corner, waiting for me to
discover
waiting for me to exterminate
the constant worry, pain, resentment
and anger that stem
from my past, that others have granted me
waiting...waiting
for me to discover something...

better.

Something worthwhile, something meaningful
something pleasant and happy, something that
will make me smile instead of causing me to weep
something...something meant for a 'happy' me

Because sometimes, I do wonder...
if there's more to life than
I've currently experienced,
no, I don't wonder, I pray
because there has to be more...
there just has to be

There has to be more smiles, and happiness
and love and care, there has to be more positive
emotion
than the negative ones I find
myself wrapped up in

And sometimes I wonder,
I truly wonder
is there anything else?
will I find what I'm searching for?
is there anything else for me in this life.

Sometimes, I wonder
is there more?

**I KNOW this is far from my best work. But a friend convinced me to write after he became aware of my personal circumstances at the moment..and heck it felt good just to get everything out, even if doesn't make sense to anyone other than me!*

**Thank you to Hellon for pointing out the errors and offering the constructive criticism!**

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  • 11 years ago

    by Darren

    There will be many many people who can relate to this, the final two lines are very strong and could almost be a poem on their own.
    It is rambly and unstructured but it works, because it compliments the detail of the poem. The repitition works well throughout.
    great write.

  • 11 years ago

    by awww

    Raw, uninhibited, straightforward outpour of emotions. poems dont always have to be structured or well thought out. this is in its truest and honest form. im glad you chose to share with us what you're feeling inside and that it helped you feel better. goodluck with what you're going through and never forget that there are people who can understand. a 5 for me. :)

  • 11 years ago

    by Hellon

    This was very heartfelt and I feel you have been bottling these thoughts up for a very long time? Wondering is there something around the corner that will make it better and yet you keep your head above water with what you know for now....everyone has a different way of dealing with the things life throws our way and...when we cannot discuss it with family/friends we need to release it somewhere so....P&Q comes in handy from time to time. This is so raw that I will not even consider pointing out a couple of little errors but...if you wish to discuss them just pm me Jenni....they are very minor BTW and will not stop me from giving this a 5!

  • 11 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Jenni, this was so beautiful and straight from the soul. It doesn't matter if it's one of your better or worst of your works, don't forget you write for you :] I'm sorry for whatever you're facing, even if it isn't anything specific but just a time in your life when everything's chaotic. I'm confused now about my future too. What career I'll be in, going out into the world, and a part of me just doesn't know how to do that. I'm really glad this friend encouraged you to write because it was raw and it showed that true desire of your heart, the deepest part that tells you hope is near. It does feel good to just let it all go by writing and this piece truly moved me. Just that one question can reach all of us, is there more? The unknown kind of frightens me. I feel like we're all trying to find ourselves in some aspect or another, no matter what age we are. This was an emotional and personal write, yet it really made me think...

    Take care <3

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