You and me

Where do I begin?
You were always the one
You were always my only
We've never even been..
You were married when we met
Always promising to leave
Always saying "don't fret!"
How stupid was I to believe!
Now I am with another
Married. Not just together.
Why can I not just forget about you?
Why do I long to be with you instead of him?
Why do I look to you when I'm blue?
Why am I contemplating ever decision I have made?
Now you are going through a divorce
Telling me you miss me and love me
Making me feel remorce
For trying to move on, falling for another
I love him, I truely do
Can we go on any further?
This time would we be together?
Or is this just another ploy to get laid?
Either way someones heart gets untethered..
Please tell me what to do!!
I swear I will do whatever you tell me to!
I just want to be happy with or without you..
I just know I love you, still..