I touch the hand you use to hold, touch the neck you use to kiss, put my hands around my body and pretend you still exist. I can smell you, your still near, i feel your heart beat on my back i know your behind me and i smile because you have not left yet, you promised you wouldnt go. But i cant help feeling a little sad inside that i'll never fully have you back, hear your voice or laugh. To have you in my heart but not in my arms is the saddest part of it all.
I whisper goodnight before i fall asleep, just so you know im thinking about you before i close my eyes and i dream of you and only you. & sometimes when i feel alone i grip your pillow tight and breath in your scent.
Until, one day i could no longer feel you, my body felt so cold, i guess this was the time for you to go home where? I do not know, but im certain you've gone to heaven to fulfill your dreams up there. I love you is the sweetest word i know, i'll say it everyday until i accept that you've finally gone away.
