The title caught my attention because some years ago, I wrote a poem with the same title when I was spending my first Christmas without my grandmother. And though this was sad and brought back many memories, the ending made me smile because, even though you're thinking about him, you're going to be happy. :)
Lovely write.

This is a very sad poem because it is supposed to be such a great time of year. It's horrible to think about a loved one's death durning the holidays. I like the emotion throughout the whole poem. You are very brave to write about this though. I like the time frame you wrote about too. Memories are one of the best or worst things we can have. So the bad one's here are just sad. I like the ending though with the little twist. When you really like about it the one's you love always want you to be happy no mattee what. Though it is hard to grieve they want you to live. Great write.

This is quite beautiful, to be fair and honest I wanted to cry! My heart feels for you since, I'm the same way with other days, some times it's hard to be happy when it's been years since the people whom you have loved just suddenly aren't there anymore and leave a whole in your heart, you're talented in writting your emotions and I hope you never stop 5/5

-Mori