Self harm

by Kelwin lost in thought   Jan 8, 2013


Self harm
that's the start of it
then comes the fun part
I stair at the blade
pressing it against my flesh
I ask
is this who I am
is this all I'm good for
I ask as the blood comes
it stings at first
then it starts to feel good
I cut again
I let my heart bleed
I cut deeper
wanting to go farther
wondering is it worth it
I tell myself yes
so I cut deep
I feel it go into the bone
I pray as I start to regret
it's to late
why can't I make it stop
it feels to good
I'm happy
what should I do
should I stop
or go on more
I continue to cut
one after another
I can't stop
my vision gets fuzzy
I realize this is it
I pray to god asking forgivness
I'm sorry everyone
I messed up again
I'm sorry mom and dad
I wasn't good
I wasn't who I was sapose to be
how did I know it would end like this
as I close my eyes
I hear a voice
it said it's not your time
then I awake
I didn't die
I look at my arms
they are bloody and raw
then I prayed
I told god thanks
I'm a brand new man

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  • 11 years ago

    by CathyButterflyJC

    Bro, this is so sad, you wrote it perfectly though, and your really described it will, outstanding poem!!! Two thumbs up!

  • 11 years ago

    by WintersAngel

    So much emotion. A clear picture of what's going through your head at that moment. Excellent piece.

  • 11 years ago

    by Alanis

    U poured out ur heart and soul, I know its hard to put this kind of stuff on paper and expect people to understand, outstanding

  • 11 years ago

    by Shades of Gray

    I really like this one!!
    ~Shades of Gray

  • 11 years ago

    by Kate

    There are a few spelling errors but... this is such a vivid picture... made me a little sick to my stomach because self-harm, to me, is very sad. It hurts to know other people hurt so much the only release is pain.
    But I do like the ending. Very optimistic.

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