Just sitting in my room, so alone wondering when I will feel sleepy, so that I may just lie my head down and drift away. But I don't. I sit and stare out the window as everyone passes me by, not knowing that I'm even there looking down at them. As the children play and people talk and laugh. I send down a smile filled with fear and sorrow. I know I'm feeling blue, I will shake myself off and put on one of my many fake smiles, and just keep going. Now, as I sit looking out of my window once again. Now the stars are out oh! So bright... As I sit and take a breath my pain is deep, and I dream on. As I dream a single tear falls from my eye, as I let it trickle down my cheek I feel, yes feel! But that is all I feel. I am empty inside. So alone once again! Dreaming of the future, memories of my past. Can't seem to get past it, sitting here in the dark. As I watch the clouds roll by. Hiding all signs of living, all is so dark, no stars in the sky, no one outside. As my mind blocks the world. I sit here alone once again. My heart is so full of pain! But this time, I do not cry, I have nothing left... As I sit here locked in my room, funny no lock on the door. But no one comes. Loneliness starts to creep. My once happy thoughts now blown away, as I open the window to take in a breath. As I feel suffocated. I need to breath desperately! But the air will not reach my lungs as I gasp for air. I close the world out from myself, as the window closes so does my heart and all that I once felt. I breathe now, as I take in my breath, my world starts up a new. I now live for myself. I do not need my memories. I will make new ones, as I open my bedroom door; I see that all is now different. I am happy once more, a new identity. As I move towards the door to go outside. I see my life as a new beginning; I am not alone, as I am with me!!!! Always remember when you feel sad don't loose hope, the day that hasn't come will tomorrow with a new day ahead and new ideas await you. As I am not alone I have myself. Ti.xo
